Boss and Coworkers

This is me, 3 from the left, and the dudes I paint with. OMG we look so gruff and blue colarish. I'm still having fun painting and working with my hands, hey I always have worked with my hands, you have to type when programing! lol, in may I start college again so I'll probably switch over to doing some type of tech job.

Naruto ^_^

I've been so into Naruto lately, reading the manga and watching the show, up to ep 119 so far! There are so many characters and I love them all, well except for Saskue that is, I really don't like that guy.



Temari, they should have her in the show more!


Kakashi, my cosplay character!


Hinata, Naruto is so blind!


Itachi, he competes with Kakashi for my favorite character.


Of course Naruto and the 4th are up there to!


And the jerk, Saskue

There are so many other, like Mitarashi Anko, Jiraiya, and Haku, that are really kool 2.

For what is just and good is on my side...

"Discard your misperceptions.
Stop being Jerked like a puppet.
Limit yourself to the present.
Understand what heppens-to you, to others.
Analyze what exist, break it all down: material and cause.
Aniticipate your final hours.
Other people's mistakes? Leave them to their maker."

" For animate beings, "harmful" is whatever obstructs the operation of their senses-or the fulfillment of what tehy intend. Similar obstructions constitute harm to plants. So too for rational creatures, anything that obstucts the operations of the mind is harmful.
Apply this to yourself.
Do pain and pleasure have their hooks in you? Let the senses deal with it. Are there obstacles to your actions? If you failed to Rechon with the possibility, then that would harm you, as a rational being. But if you use common sense, you haven't been harmed or even obstructed. no one can obstruct the operations of the mind. Nothing can get at them-not fire or steel, not tyrants, not abuse- nothing. As long as it's a" a sphere...inperfect stillness."

"External things are not the problem. It's your assessment of them. Which you can erase right now.
If the problem is something in your own character, who's stopping you from setting your mind straight?
And if it's that you're not doing something you think you should be, why not just do it?
-But there are insuperable obstacles.
Then it's not a problem. The cause of youre inaction lies outside you.
-But how can I go on living with that undone?
Then depart, with a good conscience, as if you'd done it. ebracing the obstacles too."

"Not to know what the world is is to be ignorant of where you are.
Not to know why it's here is to be ignorant of who you are. And what it is.
Not to know any of this is to be ignorant of why you're here.
And what are we to make of anyone who cares about the applause of such people, who don't know where and who they are?"

"Choose not to be harmed-and youwon't feel harmed. Don't feelharmed-and you haven't been."

All quotes from Marcus Aurelius' Meditations

Are we animals or do we just make excuses?

One thing that always bothers me is when people make excuses for their actions. I firmly believe that we always have a choice to make in every situation and every circumstance. One thing that I hear a lot, which I believe is an excuse for irrational behavior, is “oh I’m just going through puberty” or “I’m PMSing so I’m not really in control of the decisions in which I make”. To me those are just excuses for people being overcome by emotions, interferences with their rational thought, pain, and various other circumstances which can effect but not completely nullify our awareness and core identity. Or do we just dismiss our entire persona because of a chemical imbalance or to many pressures, I’ll just call all of those interferences for now? Take POWs for example, yes a undisciplined solider will be overcome by torture and reveal sensitive information to the enemy because of his lack of resolve and discipline when it comes to doing what is right and doing what feels easier. So many parents tell me that their children are just going through puberty or their teenage years and that is why they are taking such irrational actions. But I went through puberty, I’m not trying to sound superior this is just my experience, and I had those abnormal and inconsistent urges or desires but when I got them my awareness picked them up, and I thought “that was odd, I don’t normally think that way or that was rather abnormal, there is something wrong here” and then I began to analyze the cause of that abnormality, but most of the time I rarely gave into that sudden urge or desire. I always had a choice and I always had my core telling me wither something was the right choice or the wrong choice. When I gave into those abnormalities I did so willingly and knowingly making the wrong choice. So then why do people say that they are uncontrollable or incoherent during these times of increased interferences? If it is true and during these times of increase interference we are incoherent as to the effect our choices will make, are we no better then animals which are ruled by instinct?

I hope no one takes this like I am bashing people who’ve have made imprudent or inefficient choices. I am only trying to discern the extent of and strength of our awareness, identity, and free will. I believe that every action I have ever taken has been of my own doing, I was aware of the right and wrong choices, and that I am responsible without excuse for them. Right choices being prudent and beneficial to the future of myself and humanity and wrong being the opposite of that.

Retiring... for awhile

To my regret I've choosen to stop playing Ragnarok and Lineage II for a while. They were just taking up so much of my time that needed to be devoted to other things, like school, work, and career stuff. I'll probably start playing again/gg, hope there is something left of my guild at that time. Haha, it'll be fun to start over if not/E10.